you weren't around
you let them hold me down with their cold hands
and you walked away
from me
and you never looked back
Thursday, June 13, 2013
i cant breathe anymore
im pretty sure
i cant breathe anymore
but then Jesus
you round the corner
and tell me
its okay
you know the way
i go and
the whys all
hidden in dark places
and unfriendly faces
you stoop down
so i can see
your kind face
you give me your hand
you hand me grace
there is no disgrace
you make me radiant
take all my ashes
and i am beautiful
you beautify me with your salvation
and i know
that no man can harm
me
i am calm in your hands
who can be against me
when the king
stoops down and
wipes the tears from my face
pushes my hair back and tells me I'm safe?
im pretty sure
i cant breathe anymore
but then Jesus
you round the corner
and tell me
its okay
you know the way
i go and
the whys all
hidden in dark places
and unfriendly faces
you stoop down
so i can see
your kind face
you give me your hand
you hand me grace
there is no disgrace
you make me radiant
take all my ashes
and i am beautiful
you beautify me with your salvation
and i know
that no man can harm
me
i am calm in your hands
who can be against me
when the king
stoops down and
wipes the tears from my face
pushes my hair back and tells me I'm safe?
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Monday, June 10, 2013
God you saved me
I was blind moving forward like
a hollow ghost
yelling at myself
to convince myself
you knew the whole time
you
spoke those whispers in my heart
I foolish didnt listen
I thought I was right
I thought you wanted this
I was so wrong
the pretty circle on
my finger
did not make me smile
but i was filled with tumbling fear
and steady uneasiness
and you knew why.
you know why.
i didnt know why
and ignored the lonely nights
the questioning thoughts
the calculated, scheduled talks
the sick dropping feelings at
condescending phrases
the thin ropes being laced around my wrists
all with a soft voice
all with a smile
all with a christian tip of the hat
and a "God told me that...."
its
like
this.
i open my mouth and he shut me up.
but You know what its like to be betrayed with a kiss
religious leaders headed for your wrists
i felt the wrongness every time.
a thought, a dream, a truthful line
all killed and murdered with a cheap rose
and
"you'll be mine, little wife and only go where I go
shut up and
follow me
that's how it is supposed to be
your'e a christian? Huh? well why cant you see- that it is all about ME?
they all think I'm a saint and so do you-
isn't this ordeal quaint?"
the thick red flags floating and flying fiercely behind
his words that truly were about "i"
not we, no.
sacrificial love no.
him and them
are allies godly, lofty
and me
the rebel spy.
well, ive spied with my eye
selfish religiosity, complacency, duality, manhood abused and misunderstood, sick
and refined
and "you'll never change, that is the gospel little girl get it right."
adding to God's words like its
fine.
thank you God
you let me loose
even though I cried.
I was blind moving forward like
a hollow ghost
yelling at myself
to convince myself
you knew the whole time
you
spoke those whispers in my heart
I foolish didnt listen
I thought I was right
I thought you wanted this
I was so wrong
the pretty circle on
my finger
did not make me smile
but i was filled with tumbling fear
and steady uneasiness
and you knew why.
you know why.
i didnt know why
and ignored the lonely nights
the questioning thoughts
the calculated, scheduled talks
the sick dropping feelings at
condescending phrases
the thin ropes being laced around my wrists
all with a soft voice
all with a smile
all with a christian tip of the hat
and a "God told me that...."
its
like
this.
i open my mouth and he shut me up.
but You know what its like to be betrayed with a kiss
religious leaders headed for your wrists
i felt the wrongness every time.
a thought, a dream, a truthful line
all killed and murdered with a cheap rose
and
"you'll be mine, little wife and only go where I go
shut up and
follow me
that's how it is supposed to be
your'e a christian? Huh? well why cant you see- that it is all about ME?
they all think I'm a saint and so do you-
isn't this ordeal quaint?"
the thick red flags floating and flying fiercely behind
his words that truly were about "i"
not we, no.
sacrificial love no.
him and them
are allies godly, lofty
and me
the rebel spy.
well, ive spied with my eye
selfish religiosity, complacency, duality, manhood abused and misunderstood, sick
and refined
and "you'll never change, that is the gospel little girl get it right."
adding to God's words like its
fine.
thank you God
you let me loose
even though I cried.
Rejoice In Trials-Notes From Church
1 Peter 4
we should expect trials
the pearl of great price is God himself
Jesus was maligned by religious people
do not be surprised if this happens to you too...
rejoice in trials
-this is humanly impossible apart from God
-remembering that he is good and in control
why rejoice?
-trails lead us to a deeper fellowship with Jesus
we share in His sufferings
-deeper level of desiring Gods glory
(our suffering not worthy to be compared with the glory to be revealed)
-Closeness to God's spirit
Fear replaced by faith
Examine yourself in trials
make sure your suffering is not sin on your part
if there is sin repent!
yet even in self inflicted suffering
God is there and pursues us and uses it for good
Glorify God in your trial.
we should feel honored to suffer for Jesus
Eliz Elliot- BE OPEN TO THE TRAINING OF TRIALS
'Lord show me what you have for me in this"
SUBMIT to Gods refining process
Entrust yourself to Gods refining process
Where else can you go??
HE IS A FAITHFUL CREATOR
Give yourself to Jesus for safe keeping
Keller-God is completely present with us in our suffering.He knows what it is like.
Continue to do good as you entrust yourself to Jesus!
ITS ALL ABOUT JESUS AND OTHER PEOPLE-SPREADING HIS FAME! BUILDING HIS CHURCH.
like the prodigal son...trials can bring us back to Jesus. He welcomes us home.
Problem of Pain- Lewis
... all these toys were never meant to have my heart......
God let me remember this.
we should expect trials
the pearl of great price is God himself
Jesus was maligned by religious people
do not be surprised if this happens to you too...
rejoice in trials
-this is humanly impossible apart from God
-remembering that he is good and in control
why rejoice?
-trails lead us to a deeper fellowship with Jesus
we share in His sufferings
-deeper level of desiring Gods glory
(our suffering not worthy to be compared with the glory to be revealed)
-Closeness to God's spirit
Fear replaced by faith
Examine yourself in trials
make sure your suffering is not sin on your part
if there is sin repent!
yet even in self inflicted suffering
God is there and pursues us and uses it for good
Glorify God in your trial.
we should feel honored to suffer for Jesus
Eliz Elliot- BE OPEN TO THE TRAINING OF TRIALS
'Lord show me what you have for me in this"
SUBMIT to Gods refining process
Entrust yourself to Gods refining process
Where else can you go??
HE IS A FAITHFUL CREATOR
Give yourself to Jesus for safe keeping
Keller-God is completely present with us in our suffering.He knows what it is like.
Continue to do good as you entrust yourself to Jesus!
ITS ALL ABOUT JESUS AND OTHER PEOPLE-SPREADING HIS FAME! BUILDING HIS CHURCH.
like the prodigal son...trials can bring us back to Jesus. He welcomes us home.
Problem of Pain- Lewis
... all these toys were never meant to have my heart......
God let me remember this.
Learn and Keep Learning
“The best thing for being sad," replied Merlin, beginning to puff and blow, "is to learn something. That's the only thing that never fails. You may grow old and trembling in your anatomies, you may lie awake at night listening to the disorder of your veins, you may miss your only love, you may see the world about you devastated by evil lunatics, or know your honour trampled in the sewers of baser minds. There is only one thing for it then — to learn. Learn why the world wags and what wags it. That is the only thing which the mind can never exhaust, never alienate, never be tortured by, never fear or distrust, and never dream of regretting. Learning is the only thing for you. Look what a lot of things there are to learn.”
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