be thou my vision

God dont let my own visions get in the way of seeing you. 3. Be Thou my battle-shield, sword for my fight, Be Thou my dignity, Thou my delight. Thou my soul's shelter, Thou my high tower. Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power. 4. Riches I heed not, nor man's empty praise, Thou mine inheritance, now and always: Thou and Thou only, first in my heart, High King of heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

5. High King of heaven, my victory won,
May I reach heaven's joys, O bright heav'ns Son!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my vision, O ruler of all.

laura welch ---"The deeper longing is to be content with being known by God, Abba, King, Saviour, O Rock that is Higher than I, Keeper, Life-giver, Bigger than life, Generous Creator of the Universe, Lover of your soul. No one is like him. and no one knows you like him."


God thank you for showing me this, through real scenes in my life.
you keep showing me time and time again
to stop idolizing people.
forgive me.
i have set certain people up high
as mom says (the Justin Timerlake phenomena) 
but this is not needed
my life can not be modeled by other people
Abba Father is my example... my guide
His affirmation is what keeps me
secure.
that is what i desire-His love
His affirmation
is what i want and need
even though i seek for it 
other ways
from other people.
oh these idols!
break them.. continue to break them 
to show me
that all falls to the side
when compared with you.

not allowed copeland(in some way describes me tonight)

Here we go
I'll smile for you now 'cause you're sad
but I'm not allowed to be sad
Here we go
I'll make a joke for you now, make you smile
but I'm not allowed to be sad

Turn away fallen on the inside from your sky
Felt no pain and didn't ever want to wonder why

Here we go
I'll burn for you now cause your're mine
and you're not allowed to feel nothing
Careful I may fall apart for you now, make you cry
But I'm not allowed to be sad

Turn away fallen on the inside from your sky
Felt no pain and didn't ever want to wonder why?

Turn away fallen on the inside from your sky
Felt no pain and didn't ever want to wonder why?


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mxqc99nvFyM

honestly
you will no longer
have the opportunity
to see me.
i will disappear
like the light fog
after the early morning
has awakened.
you will wonder where i am
and look for me
through the halls
and
around every
corner
but you will not find me.
because you
did not
see me
when i was standing
right in front of you.
i was transparent
beneath
your frozen eyes.

sometimes, i just wanna be known.

please,
if u must love me
love me for who i am.
not who you think i am.
please don't think you have me figured out
just by observation
or casual talk.
please remember
that God looks at the heart..
would you look at my heart too?

adele-hometown glory

round my hometown
the memories are fresh
round my hometown
oh, the people i have met...
are the wonders of my world
are the wonders of my world,
are the wonders of this world.

Mat. 6:33

Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

pick up your cross DAILY
and follow me.
oh but look..how this year
has become all
about
me.
no death to self
and therefore
no life
just colorless
motions.
but im longing to be freed again
and i know well that nothing else will do.
how many times must i wrestle in the valley
to come again to the place
where my self
must leave
and you must be Lord
of all of me?

Come to the Lover
You who want,
and you'll
want no more.

easter sunday -brian

our desire
for justice
for a judge
to come and
make things right
is a cry
an evidence
for
the merciful
and just
judge
of Jesus Christ.

easter sunday-one story brian and his son

he watched his son as he was separated from him in an overcrowded mall
in the Philippines.
he could see his son but his son could not see him.
but he remembered that he had taught his son luke, that whenever he was lost
or they got separated, to just stand still.He told him with passion, "stand still and Daddy will always find you." so instead of going and grabbing his son,
he crouched down in the crowded mall
and through the passing people, watched Luke, to see if he remembered.
Luke shuffled his feet with looks of nervousness
searching scanning with his eyes
the questions growing in his mind, "where is Daddy?""am i alone?"
He watched his sons expression go from nervousness,
to fear, almost frantically looking around now, but still not moving-
he watched his fear melt into despair,
as Luke hung his head to the floor,
he had lost hope.
The father couldnt take it any longer- he rushed to Lukes side and gathered him in his arms.
the look of relief coming all over the boy.
Brian looked at his son who was now beaming with a smile, and said
"i am so proud of you, you waited right where you were!" "What did I tell you Luke?"
"I don't remember.." he said
"Daddy, will always find you."

and isnt that like us? we search search for God and try so hard. We go in a million directions. And when we cant find Him we ask where is God? Am i really alone? Are we alone? But we have forgotten, that He will always find us.

easter sunday-brian our pastor

there is no beauty with out light... Jesus floods light into our life
so we can SEE the messy house.
and actually have the chance to truly clean it
and we notice with the light in the room
the beautiful color of the walls or texture of the floors,
beauty we never saw before.
Jesus is the light-and without it beauty can not be acquired or seen.

When jesus enters in-we are EXPOSED.

WHEN YOU KNOW
THE INTENT
OF THE CREATOR--
THE PIECE OF ART THEN COMES TO LIFE.
NEW LIFE AND BEAUTY IS BROUGHT TO IT.
THIS IS WHAT GOD HAS DONE FOR US.

michael buble-you dont know me

You give your hand to me
Then you say hello
I can hardly speak
My heart is beating so
And anyone can tell
You think you know me well...
But you don't know me

No, you don't know the one
Who dreams of you at night
And longs to kiss your lips
And longs to hold you tight
Oh I'm just a friend
That's all I've ever been
'Cause you don't know me.

what i learned from Eddie

(at Debs house a group of us sitting at eddies feet basically, and listening to his wisdom given to him by God.)

you cant hold up an image.
it takes ..too...much...work.
take off the mask.

we all have a trash can we carry round.
we can leave the trash in there or try to fix it ourselves.
(this will never work)

or we can dump the trash out on the table-in front of Jesus. He will put His arm around us, and say--"lets work on this together."

good trees bear good fruit. it may be winter time and your fruit inst as much as in spring, but if you are planted by the water, with your roots deep, your still there. God doesn't lose us through seasons.

Clean the inside of the cup, then the outside will shine too.