God. forgive me
i have sinned against you
and you alone.
and deep down
into my heart
i long to give you the things i hold on to
because
i miss you.
walking in your shadow
and hearing;
knowing your voice
in my sorrow
you made me smile
you gave me hope
you quieted my
racing longing heart
and this valley
has made me someone else
i do not know
cold and conformed
to lesser ideals
doubtful
and stoic
if there is any hope to
feel
to gain wisdom
to see you again
i beg you in the name of Jesus
to bend your ear to
your lost child
and bring me back home.
i only
ever feel
okay
when
i am
close
to
you.